I must, somehow believe that they're mine and I'm the only person in charge. I've been played by my emotions, under various circumstances. The moment I decide to make my life my own is when I am able to protect my emotions.
Because there is no such a thing as a person who does these things I like to believe I'm able to do. Being lonely in such a crowded place. Feeling sick is not an option, being sick wasn't my choice. I was awarded with the intimacy of being surrounded and scattered by all means. It used to be a 60% chance that I might do it, and the remainig 40% was that voice telling that I should. Follow, not lead... believe in my dreams and become the beginning of it. How does this happen to me, you may wonder, what was it like before it all began.
